Musings From A Changing Blogger
Hi! It’s me, the blogger you haven’t heard from. Remember me? The one who used to bombard you with three posts a week,… yup, that’s me. Incase you can’t tell from the above sentence, I seem to have lost my groove when it comes to blogging as of late. One day I just stopped writing, I just didn’t want to, didn’t have anything to say and quite frankly felt defeated about it. Although I have not come up with the reason for this sudden and abrupt change in tending to my blog, I have ideas that I keep coming back to.
First and foremost let me start with this: I started this blog when I quit my job and became a full-time stay-at-home-mom. I wanted an outlet to write about my life with Lillyo. Which I think was the problem from the beginning. Of course I wanted to share my life as a new mom, but over time, as Lilly became less and less new, and as I grew into motherhood a few things crossed my mind:
-I don’t find motherhood as hard as everyone says it is.
-I don’t have that much to write about it.
-I am lost in a sea full of mommy fish who are all writing about it.
-I don’t seem to fit the mold.
Trust me, some days are harder than the rest, and some days I just don’t get along with my child, that’s for sure. But isn’t that an unspoken truth of all parenting? I mean they’re tiny people, who have good days and bad days. But overall, I’m not permanently exhausted, I’m not sad to be at home, I’m just me. I’m working my way through this journey and I like it. But sometimes I feel like I’m the odd one out, like I’m the only mom who doesn’t find it exhausting and draining to be a mom...
So why sit here and write a mom blog,when I don’t have a drive for it anymore, when I don’t have anything to contribute to that conversation?
Hopefully this isn’t offending anyone, because there are so many mom bloggers I have met and who I truly adore, and who I do actually read all the time. They’re just better at the subject than me I feel. They have more to say, more tips and ideas for great posts. Which left me feeling underwhelming to you all, and overwhelmed in my own corner.
So where does this leave me, and what is the point of this rant you ask? Quite frankly I just don’t know. I just know that what I’ve been writing doesn’t work for me anymore, and what I want to do encompasses so many different things that I don’t fit into any niche yet.
So, I’m going to be doing a bit of rebranding. After thinking about it, and assessing where I want to be I’ve decided I’m going to take a step back from the constant blog, and write when it matters. I’ll write when I have something to say instead of writing to write. I have been through one heck of a journey in my life, and barely any of my readers know about it, and I have so much I can share. I’m going to share more about being an individual who also happens to be a mother. Did you know I operate two businesses as well as blogging and mothering? I’m also a wife, daughter, sister, and friend. I’m so much more than just a mom and those things have been less important to me as I grew into my role as a mother and share the journey with you. My friend Amanda from Pish to Posh and I were talking about this, we want to be one thing, but we don’t necessarily fit into one mold alone. We are an amalgam of different ideas and thoughts all molded into one person who has so much more to say than our blog genre is supposed to. And I want to break that mold.
So I’ll write about me, my family, my stories. I will write about small businesses that I find and love. I want to write about traveling because I absolutely love to travel and have been to some amazing places. I will write about my life as a small business owner. I’ll write about more subjects that my life entails, but that I have yet to share with you. I won’t fit into a mold, and I won’t be the blogger who inundates you with posts three times a week anymore.
It’s a step forward. It’s a step toward me enjoying my blog again and feeling like I might have a voice worth sharing. When you so see me, hopefully the posts will have more blood coming to them, or inspire you. Maybe you’ll learn something and find a new dream? Or maybe you’ll just enjoy reading them more, and getting to know the changing me. See you soon-ish!